The Doctor's Nicknames

This past rotation Stewart has acquired two nicknames that I think are fitting, and telling about what kind of doctor my husband is.

The first is one a patient's family gave him - "Doctor Kind Eyes". He had to tell the wife how serious her husband's illness was and she told him that he had the kindest eyes she'd ever seen. And from then on she called him doctor kind eyes and that is what the family came to call him. He enjoyed working with their family and it was a tender experience working with them as their husband and father passed away.

The Second is akin to the first. His fellow residents gave him this one - "Wife Whisperer". As he is working in the Veterans Hospital right now he primarily sees older, very very sick men. More often then not he is communicating all day long with their wives discussing their husbands' treatment and prognosis. It seems that no one does it as well as he does. Whenever a wife calls in the team passes the phone to Stewart and his senior is always marveling at how well he does with them on the phone and on rounds.

At times now and then Stewart really dreads going to work. Its not because he doesn't care its because he does care.It is such a huge responsibility to try and heal bodies and preserve lives. I am so thankful for his kindness and thoughtfulness as he treats and works with his patients. He is a good doctor and I think his nicknames are evidence of that. He's always had such humble honest heart and its what makes him stand out as a healer. :) Good job Stewy.

My Dream Routine

I know this makes for riveting reading but welcome to my life! When has it ever been all that riveting to read about!?!? :O) Anyways, this week I had three days in a row where I was bored. Like sitting there wondering what to do. Seriously, that has probably happened like 20 times in my entire life, ok I don't know if childhood counts but you get it. I am not one to wonder what to do with myself. I usually have like twenty things I wish I could be working on all at once. But I don't exactly know why that has changed lately. My guess is that we are sort of in an interesting place of limbo...waiting. I love home improvement projects and crafts but I really have no desire to start any of them with a move looming ahead. Then the crafts I could do like scrapbooking I sort of don't want to do because I don't have space for it. I would have to do it in my bedroom but then the kids are into it and Genevieve is into everything!!!!! Plus we are trying to save our money and crafts are not very budget friendly. I love to cook and bake and try new recipes but then again we are on a strict budget and I am on a strict diet so.... And four kids make it tricky to have any sort of hobby; with GeneVi's two naps a day, dropping off and picking up kids three times a day, three meals to prepare and an endless need to pick up and clean up, and then my diet of eating every 3 hours and getting my 1 and 1/2 hour workout in everyday I don't want to over complicate my life with extra stuff just because I feel bored and then not do the most important stuff.... So this is what I have decided I will do and work at so I don't get so bored which really for me translates to the feeling of having nothing to work towards... wow, take a breath that was long!

My Dream Routine

5:00 am - wake up a little after Stewart and make him a pimp breakfast, say a morning prayer with him and send him on his way with a big kiss
5:30 am - bust out my cardio and scripture listening on the cross trainer
6:10 am - force myself to do my strength training
6:45 am - prayers and journal writing (if I feel like writing)
7:00 am - jump in the shower, and do my hair cute!
7:30 am - put dogs out and get the kids ready for the day:
- prayer, scripture reciting, breakfast, with vitamins
- dressed, hair brushed/done, teeth brushed
- feed dogs
- pick up from breakfast and morning routine
9:00 am - take Bridger to school
9:20 am - Story book time
9:30 am- Genevieve down for her nap
10:00 am - kids quite play time, I do chores, make phone calls, church prep,...
12:15 pm- pick up Bridger drop off preschoolers
12: 25 pm - Get Genevieve her lunch
12:30 pm- Bridger's home work time: work book, spelling test words, site words, and reading books
1:15 pm - Play time for Bridger and Genevieve and I do house work and or run errands
3:20 pm - pick up Angie and Ben from school
3:30 pm - walk jog with the dogs, Ben and baby in jogger and Angie and Bridger on bikes I jog
4:00pm- put GeneVi down for her nap
4: 45 pm - dinner preparation, pick up house from the day's play
5:30 pm - eat dinner
6: 15 pm - clean up from dinner, feed dogs
6:45 pm - kids play with dad, I rest a little bit
7:30 pm- start bedtime routine:
- pick up house a little
- get jammies on
- brush teeth
- scripture reading
- award kids their daily smiley faces (how they earn allowance)
- picture book reading
- family prayer
- tuck kids in and help them say their personal prayers
- daddy reads Harry Potter while the kids lay in bed
9:00 pm - get myself ready for bed
9:30 pm - cuddle up to Stewart watch a favorite show
10:00 pm - lights out

Monday - grocery store, we do family home evening
Tuesday - laundry, poop scoop day, bathroom cleaning day, and YW activity
Wednesday - Angeli's play therapy
Thursday - bedroom cleaning day
Friday - something fun after Bridger gets out of school like: park, dog park, kids museum, swimming at the club house. Then its fast food at home night, and we do our family movie night.
Saturday - laundry, something fun in the day, extra shopping if needed, do family game night, and Sunday morning prep
Sunday - we relax and perhaps: watch Mormon Messages, church movies, play church games, go on a family walk, have a "fancy" dinner, and make sure to cuddle

Besides the dogs and a few other little things I am sort of already doing most of this but I want to do it better, I want to do it more regularly. So that will be my goal, to do this better and more and live my dream routine! ...I think in five years this will be really funny/interesting to look back at and remember me in 2012.


*crafts I do want to do though are my brag book pages for Grandma Rasmussen and scrapbook my 2012 and 2013 family calendars! That's it.

Mr. Rasmussen

Today Stewart and I had our 8th wedding anniversary. In some ways I cant believe that it has only been 8 years. It at times feels like my life just started when I met him. Thinking back to those first meetings all the fluttering emotions come flooding back into my mind. I feel like a young women again meeting that young handsome man who loved introducing me to all his friends, he was so proud to call me his. I remember on our first date as we sat and watched the movie my leg was just ever so slightly touching his and I couldn't help but be overwhelming aware that we were touching. :O) I remember us sitting in his car talking until 3am and him walking me to my dorm and giving me my first hug from him and thinking that this was the start of something special. Oh, all the thousands of my cherished memories that center around the fact that I had found my other half.

I remember our first kiss. It was magic. When I made it back to my dorm floor all my girl friends were waiting to hear all about it and I will never forget the squeals when I announced we had kissed and when I announced, "I could kiss those lips for eternity the giggles and laughter that erupted...And I really thought, "I hope I get to kiss him forever" and I am so lucky I will.

Stewart has been the happiest thing to have ever happened to me. He has only ever brought me joy and I love him more then I thought I could love. I am really one of those annoying giddy with love people that others love to roll their eyes at. He is just so perfect for me I don't think I'll ever get over it. I honestly thank God for him everyday. I miss him every minute we aren't together. Seriously. If he is in a different room then me for too long I will find myself like gravity pulled to that room just to be closer to him.

Our love story is so cliche its funny, but its mine and I love it and I love that I get to be the luckiest girl in the world. I spent my childhood and youth not really believing that that sort of joy would ever exist for me so to have it astonishes me daily.

Unlike all those other stories I tell year after year :O), I hardly ever share this one. Its special to me because it makes it so apparent how much God's hand has been in my life and how I owe every happy good thing to Him. The year before we met I remember one night as I read my scriptures and wrote in my journal about how yet again Valentines was approaching and I would not have a valentine the Spirit fell upon me so strongly. I had this overwhelming impression that my future husband was in need of my fervent prayers, that it was so important that I pray for him. I knelt by my bedside and prayed with tears streaming down my cheeks that he would be strengthened whatever ailed him. It was a really remarkable experience. I wondered what it could have been that he was dealing with, who he was, and where he was in his life, and I was thrilled that he existed. But I felt that he was teetering on the edge of something and that if he was not strengthened I would lose him. I worried for him that the Spirit would need to prompt me to pray for him. When we were engaged and I learned more about his hospitalization with his life threatening infection and ARDS I realized that was what I had prayed for, that he would survive. I could never doubt God's love for me, he gave me my Stewart.

I love my Eagle Scout man who is as hardworking, honorable, and as true as his pioneer stock. He's my favorite. I love my Mr. Rasmussen.

I made this really quickly just for kicks....enjoy! (Well, if you like seeing 27 frames of our faces then you will really enjoy it! ;) haha! But you get to see my new hair cut in the last pics...but then again my hair cut really does just look like every other hair cut I've ever had! Oh, Whatever! Enjoy if you can! ;)

Also this past week...

Least you think I am a depressive blob. :O) I wanted to share how happy my emotional week turned out to be!

- I had my hair artfully chopped. I was growing it out to have the ever so popular long wavy lock look but I realized I don't have enough hair for that look...its just too thin so I whacked it. I now have a longer a-line bob. Its cute. The color isn't what me and my salonist (?) were going for but whatever its not bad just a little zebra-ish. Its funny though no one has really noticed I've cut 6 inches off! They just say, "I like your new color." :O)

- I got all geared up to restart LIVE the LIFE and I've started my own Live the Life blog for extra accountability. So if you are interested in that you can track my second try at it on there. Here is the link, http://emilylivingthelife.blogspot.com/ You can even see my before pic and make all the fun of me you want! ;)

- I got the dogs fixed...poor little girly wont get to be a mommy and our man will never be a real man. I cant help but feel that this is evil but we cant have siblings having babies together and we can't afford puppies anyways so it had to be done. But seriously how sad. :(

- I cheered and prayed for Stewart while he took his step three board Exam Monday and Tuesday - testing 9 to 5 two days strait is tough stuff. whoot whoot STEW! One step closer!

- We've been celebrating our anniversary! We were planning a trip to Tahoe but Stewart couldn't be out of town since he was on backup call so we got away to Reno. LOL We stayed at the Peppermill in this awesome suite, did sealings at the temple, had an amazing fancy Italian dinner, slept in, and then had a lovely brunch. It was the bomb and fun and romantic and the temple was the loveliest thing ever. Happy us. :O)

- Stewart got me a cricut expression 2, flowers, a lovely card, and a Costco card for our anniversary!!!!!!!! Um, what a sweet man! And all that on top of taking me on a a lovely getaway! I am so spoiled! ......I think he is more excited for me to open the cricut then I am. He loves those things! And what can I not wait for? Family night at Costco tomorrow! I am dreaming of their turkey, provolone, and pesto sandwich.....I am seriously going to postpone my diet one day so I can eat that bad boy before I kiss cheese good bye....its so worth it!

- Paul came to town! (Paul is Stew's little brother) This was such a treat. He was in town for a BYU construction management competition. Oh, we love Paul. We think the world of him. He is so fun to hang out with. He is so fun we even asked him do sealings with us. :O) So fun to see him.

- And least I forget! I made the Oreo filled chocolate chip cookies I have been wanting to make for about a year now....they ended up looking like UFO cookies but the taste was fun and really good and Paul's construction team used them to fuel them through their all night scale model building. Go team BYU!

This week

This week I have been on such an emotional roller coaster. my poor husband can hardly keep up with me. I am going from being in tears I am so filled with joy, to tears because I am just so sad. I have no other explanation for it other then the fact that Satan is a big old jerk. :O)

Well, here's the story. I was feeling down and trying really hard to build myself up again and was just believing I was a million wonderful things again when a well meaning lady at church insulted me so much so that it sort of broke me. I have said this a million times, I don't mind not being liked its the insecurity that people pretend to like me more then they really do that drives me crazy. If you dislike me and are open about it you can insult me all the time and it will roll right off my back but if you are my friend and you do something jerky you can bet it will take me years to get over it. So what happened was that she was rude which she always is to me, though she thinks she is helping me, but what broke me was that when everyone who was standing around heard what she said chimed in to agree with her it hurt. I had asked some of those people that very morning for their advice and opinion on the matter and they had really made me feel I was lovely and making the right choice. So when they really told me what they thought I felt lied to and ganged up on. It was like all the good things they had ever said to me were immediately drawn into questions and I doubted then that any nice thing anyone had ever said to me was true. So where does this lame situation lead me? I have been trying to figure out my worth and I feel like a teenager again so full of insecurities and doubts about who I am to others. Do you ever get that way?

I have times like this every so often (much much less as I get older) where I get so many doubts about people's real feelings about me that I really feel like I am not loved...or not worth being loved... I am not sure which it is. I know rationally that is ridiculous but I can't logic the feeling away. I have to pray it away...the Holy Ghost has to heal my heart's fears. And its a fear . Its from Satan I know. That is his best tool against me. It always has been, to make me question that those who are close to me and love me really don't. That they are just being polite and really just tolerate me. I hope with this latest bout I can grow from it. That I can be stronger from this attack on my heart. But its such a negative cycle because I feel doubts and fear and then I beat myself up for being so immature as to feel so insecure about such logically lame things. Oh, its annoying.

The difference I have found since I was a teenager is that I don't question my worth and love from my Father in Heaven or Savior Jesus Christ. I know they, along with my sweet kids, adore me and love me. So that's progress. With my husband I know he loves me but I doubt at times that I deserve it.... Which is ridiculous. Anyways, I wonder if I am the only adult who gets this way. I'm on the up though. Every nice thing someone does for me heals my heart a little more...its coming. As long as no one close to me insults me again I'll be good in no time. :O)

To my Angeli

Dear Angeli,

Oh, my sweet girl. I am so glad we named you Angeli, you are an angel. You are never mean. You are a nurturer through and through. You are so patient and put others before yourself. At dinner time we always ask what our favorite part of our day was and what was one thing we did for someone else and you always have a list of things you could mention as your nice things. I love watching you interact with others whether it is the puppies, or your little sister, or your rambunctious brothers you are always so kind to them. You talk to the puppies with so much love and happy sweetness. You delight in making your baby sister giggle. And you are the one who sits with me and watches Genevieve as we both laugh and adore her together.

You like making others happy. For your birthday you got a lot of dollar bills and so what did you do the next couple days? Share them with the family. I had to keep telling people to give you back your money since they still had so much of their own birthday money and you were so disappointed that I made them give you your money back. :)

When we talked about what everyone liked about you on your birthday your brothers both said, "I love playing with Angeli!" They adore you because you are so much fun to play with. You seem to have the ability to enjoy others so much that they feel how much you enjoy them and feel so great about themselves and have so much fun with you. You are so quick to have fun and to giggle when it come to your brothers and everyone has fun when you are in the game. you don't get hung up on winning and and being the best , or having it your way...you are there to have fun. Everyone likes to claim you as their best friend. Often when we have to say what our favorite part of our day is Bridger and Ben will say, "playing with Angeli." You blossom in one-on-one play dates with your friends. Groups are not very fun for you but one-on-one is perfectly delightful for you.

You love feeling pretty. You like to dress up and put on twirly skirts. Sometimes I catch you looking at your self in the mirror and you are smiling at your reflection and trying out different poses, and facial expressions,....this is also why you are my best picture taker! :O) Bridger always compliments you when you are dressed fancy and you love it. When you put on something you think is fancy and lovely you run to show him and he undoubtedly will tell you how pretty you look. :O) it is sweet. For Christmas you were given a jewelry kit and you made some snap on earrings when you put them on you looked so beautiful and grown up...a little too pretty and grown up if you ask me. I deiced right then you are not getting your ears priced until you are 12! :O) I hope you wont get too wound up in that stuff....but I think its part of girls nature to want to be like a beautiful flower and you surely are a sweet lovely bloom. I hope I can be a good role model to you about not basing your worth on your appearance....you are so so so much more then that!

You are smart and hardworking. You love doing what i s right. When you do something nice or good or a chore or something you just beam and feel so great. I love giving you opportunities to do something good because it makes you just sparkle with excitement.

You love to sing, to dance, to swim, to go on walks, to ride your bike, to play the wii, to read stories with mom and dad, you love doing school work, you love to color, and you love chopping in the kitchen. even though trying new things can be a bit scarey you are good at everything you try. It is so fun to watch you realize how fun and enjoyable new things are as you venture out into trying new things. You love all art. When you color you are very thoughtful and pick each color with care. You love color and your pictures are always the most colorful.

You have a very tender little heart. Sometimes you get anxious and worry a lot and you sometimes try to suppress any emotion that you think would make others upset. I love teaching you how to be brave and face hard things and that it is okay to admit when you feel sad, or worried, or angry. As we have been working with you it has been such a sweet experience to watch you tentatively come out of your shell a little more and take more risks and have you realize how strong you really are. I love seeing your little heart feel more and more brave. I am so grateful you have Bridger who shares your tenderness but loves taking risks and putting himself out there. You are a such a blessing in helping him make smart choices, not taking too many risks and he helps you reach a little farther and be more carefree.

I love to cuddle with you and I love sitting with you and holding onto you while reading stories and talking to you about what your thoughts are. Your thoughts are delightful. :O)

Your father and you really enjoy your special time together taking care of the doggies. You and he have the same heart for animals and you two really love walks with the doggies and taking them on adventures. It is one of my favorite things watching you four together. :O)

Angeli, when I think of you all grown up I see a beautiful women. I see a beautiful mother and nurturer. I see your angelic nature blessing everyone around you as your spread kindness, peace, love, and joy with your gentle spirit. You will be a perfect mother, being kind, patient, teaching them with love,.... it will be second nature to you. To me you exemplify beauty and virtue. Oh, how Heavenly Father will rejoice as he knows he can send his special children to such a good loving mother. You are a wonderful friend and I am so glad I have you as my sweet daughter and friend. You will always be my little rose bud and I love watching you blossom more and more all the time. I count it as a tender blessing to get to be your mother. I love you forever.

With all my hugs, squeezes, and smiles,

Your Mommy

Yee-Ha!

Yee-ha! We had us a cow girl party this year for Miss Angeli and it was a lot of fun to pull together. This was my final party and we had things worked out like a well oiled machine...except for the picture taking. I lost track of time and didn't really get any pictures taken and then the kids got there and so my pictures aren't as good this time around...like I didn't even get a picture of the awesome cowboy Stewart made for the shooting game or any pictures of them firing their guns off. Oh, well. Enjoy the pictures I got! :O)
This time I ditched the fondant as the base and used butter cream. I think I liked that better although i kept forgetting how soft it was and I'd nick the cake or something and then it wasn't as smooth and I wanted. Plus I made a tree and was done with the cake when I decided I hated the tree and so I turned the cake around and had to reposition everything...I wasn't really excited with it when it was done but it was three am and I was done whether I liked it or not. I think Angeli liked it...she wanted flowers and toy on it. :O)
When the girls arrived they each got to get all cow girly! They each got a pink cowgirl hat, a bandana, and a sheriff's pin. This was funny because the girls were already cowgirl-ed up! LOL So they just got extra cow girly! Then we were out for cow girl training. The first game was target practice. I failed to get any pictures of this. Each girl got a gun. They had to put them in their holster, and turn around then when I blew the whistle they had to turn back around and shoot the mean cowboy cutout Stewart made. Angeli was the fastest each time....don't ever take her on in a duel!
After that we played pin the tail on the horse. This wasn't as fun as I hoped but I think it was because all the other girls had played it so many times it was old news...my kid had never played it so they thought it was fun but Angli was embarrassed she wasn't "as good" at it as the other girls - which was a shame because the whole thing that makes this game fun is seeing how silly the horse looks with its tail all over the place.Then it was stick horse races. They had to race with their stick horses around the balloon table and back. Poor miss Angeli got all stressed out and wouldn't race which sort of killed it but Stewart saved the day and got her to race him and then it sort of turned around the game. Party throwing for a child with anxiety issues is interesting. LOL :O) For her next party we will draw pictures and do crafts not running around and stuff. I think she cried with each game poor thing....she was just so worked up about doing well in front of her friends. Bless her little heart though because I got her to help her little friend who was sad because she wasn't the fastest (which I have to say none of the games had winners or losers but the girls couldn't help but get competitive about them) horse in the horse race and Angeli took her under her wing and helped her have fun which helped Angeli have fun. After that it was pinata time and this was everyone's favorite!
After the pinata it was time for cake and ice cream and presents. I decided at parties to serve chocolate milk and that is always the kids favorite. None of the parents would eat the cake(diets) but this cake was delicious if I do say so myself. :O)
By the end of the day the girl had been so stressed out that she said she didn't like her party very much. OH, well! :O) I am glad she was honest. Next year we aren't doing a single friend party and Angeli is looking forward to that just as much as I am! LOL I think when the stress fades for her she will look back on it and have happier memories. At least I hope so! I mean look how cute it all was! :O) .... she wont let me take down the party decorations so I know she liked that part! :O)

Happy Birthday Cupcake!

Our baby girl turned one this month. I cant believe it has been a year. She is so grown up. I am still marveling that I get to be her mother. She is a delight. She's this sparkly happy little cupcake of a girl.For her birthday I did a small little family party with a cupcake theme. Since the girl loves balloons we tied six balloons on the sides of her high chair and she was in heaven. I really wanted her to be aware that it was her special day and I really think she was. She giggled and giggled at all the the attention she got and LOVED us singing to her and would start dancing and clapping as we sang to her. And she even learned to blow out her candle and blew it out all by herself. I was impressed with her...she is a really fast learner. We mostly took video but here is a little collage of some adorable pictures of her at her birthday party.
As is our tradition she got her special stuffed animal and her very own mom and dad made blanky. She loves them both and carries them around and hugs them and kisses them regularly....and of course her blanket has cupcakes on it. :O) We love her and we loved celebrating her one year mark too.

To my Genevieve

Dear Genevieve,

You have grown up so much this year..I can hardly believe it has been a year. Time is going so quickly these days, I wish it would slow down a little so I'd get to keep you as my baby a little bit more. :O)

Sweetheart, you are such a joy. You have been such a gift to our family. Your sweet, confident, mature, fun, and positive spirit has been a wonderful blessing to our family. This past month you have become such an entertainment for us. You love to copy everything we do, especially your mommy's actions. And you are such a fast learner! Right now I have a cold and so you copy my coughing, my blowing my nose, and my laying on my bed. It is so cute! Yesterday I was getting dressed putting on makeup and you copied every action I did...patting your face like I was doing with my powder. Makes me laugh. At church when people raise their hand for a sustaining vote you vote right along with everyone else. You have always been very observant...you study things but the fun thing about your studying is that you are not overly serious about it. You are not one to stress. You are matter a fact about it but still very positive about things. Its like you are just saying to us, "Oh, I should do that too. Look I can do it too!" You do love our praise and our clapping for you. When mommy says, "good job!" you giggle and squeal and clap your hands together for yourself. It make me love praising you all the more.

You like to talk though I can tell you don't really care how accurate you are. When I ask you a question you respond with very cute inflections and such but not making any sense. You are becoming more and more social. You love people...especially kids. You don't necessarily engage with them but rather enjoy their presence and energy.

You love to play games. You love to explore, you love to achieve things. Like when you learned to climb the coffee table you'd climbed up there and stood right in the middle and when we discovered you and your baby triumph your giggled and giggled and held your hands up high, stomped your chubby little legs smiling while we marveled at you.

If you want something then stand back world! you are going for it. We were at an indoor play area at the mall yesterday and you were standing your ground with all the big kids running around. There was a girl who was probably about four who was climbing a plane and you climbed up there and just sort of took over. The little girl was beside herself she didn't know what to make of you. You kept doing that over and over again. It was pretty funny to watch these big kids try to figure out what to do with this little baby who was taking over their play area.

you love phones. You like the way they feel, the way they taste, how you hold them to your ear and pretend to talk in them, the games and sounds they create....you love them. you also like our puppies. You have a funny relationship with them. They really respect you. They love you because you always rain food down on them and they know if they bug you you will pull their fur. And you think they are cute and funny and giggle at them and smile at them and let them out of their crate all the time! :O) They love to steal your pacifiers....you guys have a love hate relationship.

Your latest tricks are: blowing out candles, giving kisses, doing high fives, blowing your nose, pointing your finger, grabbing things off the dinning room table, coloring, talking on the phone, using a spoon, using a cup, climbing out of the bathtub, finding mom's purse wherever it may be and pulling everything out of it, climbing out of all the safety belts in grocery carts (mom hates that one), and making Indian sounds by patting your hand on your mouth, and dancing you have always loved music and dancing to it.

I remember when I was expecting you I had this feeling several times in very spiritual moments that your little spirit was regal, strong, and that you where a natural leader. I sort of saw in my mind a vision of what you would be like when you were older (I know this sounds gaggy but it was actually really a neat experience)...I saw you holding a torch holding it high in the air admits a raging storm behind you and you were holding it confidently and high. Just like the young women motto, "Arise and Shine forth that thy light may be a standard for the nations" D&C115:5. I see you as someone that others will be drawn to, I see you as being very talented, and I see you as a leader who stands for righteousness and virtue. A noble, virtuous, regal leader...you are of a royal birthright.

I love you. I love your smiles, your giggles, your hugs, your coos and jabbering, I love your smell, your wonderment at the world, your ambition, your everything. You are such a gift and a joy. I love you very much little miss GeneV. Watching you grow up is going to be so exciting and marvelous. You are going to change the world. I can feel it.

I love you my little baby doll! I do!

All my love and adoration,
Your Mommy

To my Bridger

Dear Bridger,

It has been such a delight to be your mommy. I have always had this sense that you were my buddy, my close friend and it has been such a fun joy to get to have you as my son. I am thrilled I get to keep you forever. You are sooooo full of life. You are smart and wise. You are genuine and aware of others and all the life that is going on around you. You are so passionate about everything! and you LOVE having FUN and being with people. You love people! Parties are your all time favorite thing ever! The planning, the decorating, the games, the people, the food,.... you love it! You emanate all the goodness in your heart constantly. I can just imagine you on your mission and I know you will be a force to be had. There is no hiding anything with you. If Bridger is happy then we are all aware and you are on a mission to make us just has happy as you...and you are so good at doing just that. And then when you are sad or angry there is no restraint we know as we all get to feel it too. You are quick to apologize, you are quick to forgive, you are so sincere and put your heart into everything you do. You are such a happy boy. All your teachers love you. You are obedient and hardworking and joyful. So joyful. Your approach to life is the same as it always has been...you never learned to walk you learned to run and boy! how you love it all!

You are hard worker. when you set your mind to something watch out, because you are going to do it. I still remember how one day you decided to clean the house for me. You did, you really did. you cleaned your room you cleaned the living room and the dinning room. Just out of nowhere. You just set your mind to it. Everything was done vacuuming and all. I was so impressed.

You are creative. This had got to be one of your strongest traits. You rearrange your room on a weekly basis. You narrate and draw 15 page long books, you invent games, you assemble meals for the entire family, and you dream BIG about all the possibilities.

You are thoughtful. You love expressing your love for others. You make cards for all of us all the time. Just the other day you and I were talking. I couldn't hear you very well so I squatted down to your level and as I listened to you talk I was looking into your. You stopped mid-sentence and said, "Mom, you are so beautiful. Your eyes are sooooooo beautiful." and as you danced off to the next room you added..."its like I can see myself in them." HA! I loved that. I think you meant you saw your reflection in them but it was funny the double meaning in them because you really do have my eyes. It was over a week ago and its still warming my heart. It was so classic Bridger...the most heartfelt sincere impromptu sweetness with a little silly laughing flair to it. I just adore your twist on life!

You hate sitting through your homework....so much so that I have given up trying to do your reading books with you...you will not read for me. This has caused me some worry.... your teacher kept showing me your 100% exams but I didn't believe her....I know she likes you so much I thought she is making it so easy she doesn't really know.... Then this Monday I sat you down and said I would read the books to you and you only had to say the words in the stories that were from your spelling list. and then out of nowhere you read the book to me. The entire thing! I asked you where you'd learned to read and you said, "I learn a lot at school." said with a very sneaky smile on your face. You got lots of teasing for that one! Then the next day I ask you to read it oh, the tantrum you threw...it was too hard and you "never." will read it. You are so smart but hate focusing on anything other then what is most interesting to you...We have lots of entertaining homework nights ahead of us! ;)

I think if there was a theme song for you it'd be the sunbeam song...you are like star shinning brightly, shinning for the whole world to see..... you shine Bridger and with so much heart you would shine for the whole world to see.

I love you and how happy and vibrant you are. I'm guessing that you were one of my best friends in the preexistence and I think it is such a PaRtY that we get to hang out together our entire lives and on into eternity!

I love you and your giant heart!

With all my love and Smiles,
Your Mommy

Bowling for FHE

We took the kids bowling for Family Home Evening this week. It was their first time bowling. They loved it. We did two games and the girls won! I won the first game and Angeli won the second game. Girl power! ....or girl luck! LOL Later that week Stew took the kids to do their black light mini golf and the kids liked that even more but I didn't go because I thought it'd be better to stay home with the baby - thus no pictures of that. :) Pictures or not, family fun is fabulous!

Live the Life Results: Week 8

Ok so this week wasn't as good as I hoped because of all the birthday throwing a celebrating and I know the next two weeks will be a lot of the same with all my kids having birthday in January. But I did well considering....

I am not sure why but I gained around my waist and hips...weird. I am guessing not doing any strength training? Not sure.

But I lost 1.8 lbs.

This week I want to get back to my week 5/6 measurements and weight. I will really need to not fudge at all to do that. I hope I can make it happen!!!! so I need to lose 2 lbs. and 2 1/2 inches around my waist and 1 inch from my hips. Might be a bit lofty but it will be a fun challenge to try for! I have 26 days till I am at my anniversary....It'd be nice to be able to wear my nice "date" outfit when we go out! :O)