Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Dr. Stewart Farr Rasmussen M.D.

Yup, its official, Stewart is a doctor. It's been an 8 year journey but he has made it this far. Halleluiah! I couldn't be more proud of our little family and how far we have been blessed to come. Stewart has been so diligent and hardworking and honestly has loved all his education. He loves doctoring and I know every moment of stress has been worth it knowing the fact that he will get to spend the rest of his life doing what he loves doing. Stewart was honored with winning a really special award at the student award ceremony that seemed to capture all that he has grown into these past four years. Here is what they said,

"The next senior award is presented in memory of Barbara O’Rourke.


This award is presented to a senior medical student who is intelligent, but humble, diligent but practical, a leader, kind and understanding, talented and devoted to family as well as medicine. Always striving to maintain harmony between a social and private life & work. It takes a lot to win this award and this years Barbara O'Rourke ward goes to Stewart Rasmussen. "
Plus they threw in a 5 grand check for good measure which completely caught us off guard and will surely help us survive this next year with such a low income with Stew being a lowly intern. Blessing! I have to say that I feel a little sad this chapter is over. It has been hard but it has also been really wonderful. It has really shaped us and our family. We also had the AOA award ceremony and so that with the student award ceremony was really neat to see my husband be recognized for all his hard work, his smart brain, and for what a great person he his.

AOAThe Student Award Ceremony

His graduation was made special because of the family that was able to come be with us. It was so so so much fun to have Dad Ras, Mom Ras, Whitney, and Great Grandma Ras here to celebrate. It really meant the world to us to have them here with us. I have had a dream of us all together having a BBQ with family gathering around a little fire, roasting marshmallows for years now. So to have that come true was blissful. It made me realize that Heavenly father knew my heart and had blessed me to have this little yet so meaningful dream come true. I felt so very spoiled.














When I think back to when we first started medical school it brings back a mixture of emotions. It has gone quickly yet it seems like a lifetime ago, I mean Angeli was only six months old when we started. Now we have two more kids, are 20 pounds heavier, have a lot more gray hairs, are more experienced, more mature, are a lot more confident, we are even more in love, have a lot more to look back on,... Ah, well we made it and now no more formal education! My, what will we do with ourselves? That is all we have ever known! Dr. Stewart we love you and are so grateful that you are the kind of man that makes his dreams happen no matter how daunting the road to them seems. Now we face 5 years of residency and 1 year of fellowship until Stewart is actually done with all his formal medical training, which my dad can attest that it never really is done since doctors have to do so many hours of continuing education every year, but....the count down is now set again and this time its for the completion of residency. Ready or not here we go!
These guys were a tight study group that helped each other do awesome through medical school. They helped medical school be so much fun for Stewart. He'll really miss these guys. But Michael will be in Tucson with us so that will be really fun!

Monday, May 23, 2011

The Half Marathon that tried to Kill me


I am still processing my feelings about my race . I have concluded it was a sucess but I am still mourning the fact that I fell badly enough that I am bruised is many matches all over my body and that I am currently hurting a lot. But it gave me great material for my talk in church I had to give the next day so that was good. Here is the little half marathon story I used as an opener,

If you have talked to me in the past weeks you probably heard me talk about the half marathon I was sort of training for. A half marathon is 13.1 miles long so weeks and even months of training are required to get ready for it. Life was so busy with the new baby I wasn’t prepared liked I had hoped. And to be completely honest I procrastinated my training. I could easily find “more important” things to do then go running for miles at a time. But I had committed myself, on face book even, so I registered and showed up yesterday for the big race.

Now I have been running pretty consistently for the past 12 years so I knew pretty well what I was getting into and I know what my strengths and weaknesses are as a runner. I can power up hills like no buddy’s business which was great for this race since it was almost non-stop hills for the first 8 miles but down hills are my weakness and what goes up must come down. The race was basically running from San Rafael park up Mt. Peavine and then back down again. The trials are narrow single lane dirt paths that are very rocky. At many places they were little more then mini creek beds where the snow melt runs down the side of the mountain edging out a deep rocky path to follow up. On the way up hill this is a great thing because I could use the rocks to push off from but down hill they were a curse. They were unstable and made for very unsure footing. I have weak ankles and those rocks were tricky to maneuver.

Early in the race I felt great. I was doing well because of all the hills. In fact I started to feel a little cocky. I was doing much better then I thought I would do. After I made it up an especially long hill I went to raise my arms above my head to cheer in victory and totally ate it. I slid into the ground like I was sliding into home base. Somehow I jumped up from my embarrassing fall and felt pretty good despite my side hurting a bit and my palms stinking from the gravel rubbing against them. So I took off and thought to myself, I better not be careless, I am not as strong as I think. The run continued on and was going well despite my earlier fall. Here and there I would land funny and almost troll my ankle but I had been fast enough to correct the angel of my ankle before any damage was done. With the bright blue skies and the trickling stream running along the trial I started to be less attentive.

As I passed the half-way point I set a goal to finish the race with a group of runners I had been running close to for the majority of the race. Up to that point that had been easy for me to do because it was mostly all up hill. In fact I had been a little ahead of them for miles and felt really good about it because one look at them and it was clear that they were serious and extremely fit runners. I thought it would really mean something to be able to finish alongside them. However, once we crested the last killer hill and faced five miles of constant downhill they switched to high gear and took off. I knew my ankles were weak, I had already fallen, and I had almost rolled my ankles several times on the run already but I was foolish. I let my vanity get the best of me and I literally put caution to the wind. I started running down the hills as fast as they were going to keep up. I kept hearing the still small voice issue a warning to me to be cautious, that I was not as strong as them but I rationalized it away; all the others runners were doing fine going so fast surely I could too, that if I just went for it everything would be fine, …

Well, sure enough I placed my foot on a loose rock and my weak ankle was not strong enough to correct the change in my balance and I went sliding down the rocky narrow trial. It hurt. Large pointed rocks drove into my shins, my palms were worn raw, and I hit my side with such force the air was almost knocked out of me. I got up and was in terrible pain. The group of people I wanted to finish with were now very far ahead of me and the runners behind me now started to pass me by as I inspected my injuries. I had three miles to go so I did what I had to do and started to run. Each step sent a shock of pain up through my shins. It took all my control to not burst into tears. I suffer from asthma and I knew if I let myself cry it would trigger an asthma attack and then I would be in serious trouble so I tried my hardest to pull it together. I prayer that Heavenly Father would help me be calm, to ease my pain, and to help me finish the race. About half a mile later I was doing better and I very cautiously made my way down the rest of the mountain side and finished slower and farther down the list of runners then I would have had I simply been smart and careful.

I finished fine, honestly just what I had hopped I would do. I ran great for a lady who had a baby just four months ago. I, in all seriousness, met all my pre-race goals: I was not last to finish and I met my training pace. In most regards it was a success. However, all the satisfaction of completing the race I have wanted to do for the past four years was robbed from me. I was disappointed in myself and sore from my injuries. I did not feel victorious, I felt foolish. I had ran like a rookie not a seasoned runner. I wished I could turn back time and could have trained better, I wish I could go back in time and applied the knowledge I know about my running weaknesses, I wish I could go back in time and listen to the small voice in my mind and heart telling me to take it easy, I wish I had learned from my mistakes… but I cant turn back time. From now on I will have this memory of my disappointment in myself. It is not how I envisioned my race to leave me feeling. That sense of accomplishment never came. The runners high I love so much was not there.

Life can often be like my race. We get distracted, we get caught up in our vanity, we get our priorities wrong, we ignore the spirit, we refuse to learn from our mistakes, we deny our weaknesses, we get careless and act reckless,…and then we suffer from the heavy weight of disappointment. That feeling is the feeling of sin and it is the most corrosive and bleakest feeling we can experience in this life. We can try to hide from it but it has a way of seeping into our very beings and robs us of our peace. It can become so complete that it takes away our ability to experience joy, it can trap our hearts in a prison of confining remorse and self-loathing.

But there is light that can chase away the deep darkness of sin. There is a way to replace self-loathing with self-respect, there is love that can fill us so much that no matter what we face we have joy and peace. How is this possible? It is possible through repentance.

So there is my race in a nut shell well, a churchy nut shell. ;) It was hard, it was fun, I was a fool and got injured, but I did well all in all. It actually felt faster then I thought it would. I know if I had been in better shape and was not an idiot racing down the mountain I would have done really well in it. I was so glad I wasn't one of the last, I was 75th our of 138 so about mid range. But for now Advil and I are BFFs and I will probably not be racing down any steep hills soon if I can help it.

The kids waiting at San Rafael Park for me to finish the race...
The mountain I ran up...
The race results, can you find me?
Me after the race with the kids...

Friday, May 20, 2011

So grown up it kills me.

Oh, I wish she would slow down a bit. But still she is so darn fun to have I guess I need to not mourn the growth but rather enjoy the moment. So, my "doll" as I call her is pretty much everyone's favorite these days and at four months old today the kids enjoy her more then ever now that she interacts with them so much more. Here are some pictures I took that the big kids just couldn't help but get in on. She is rolling over, laughing and giggling, she "talks" a lot, and spits up just as much, she is getting very chunky, still loves music, still hates wind though not as much, and now LOVES her toys. To celebrate her turning four months the kids ad I unpacked the baby toys and cleaned them and then let her play with them. Thus the spontaneous picture taking. Enjoy!



Sunday, May 8, 2011

I love these people I made

Aren't they so cute! How I was blessed to have them I will never really comprehend. Some of my sweetest gifts ever. What a great Mother's day. I want to brag and say how much I loved today and how much I appreciate my sweet little family. They brought me breakfast in bed (even after I had already taken a shower), suffered through pictures with me (which my kids hate pictures so it was, in fact, a gift), made a fancy dinner, and Stewart gave me a new temple dress. Life is blissful and blessed these days with Stewart home 24/7 and we are enjoying being spoiled with time to do the little things we have always been too busy to do. My husband is the best thing that has ever happened to me and he is spoiling me with doing all these little projects around the house like painting the bathrooms, our bedroom,... so today was just the cherry on top. I love being a mother and having a day to take it all in is wonderful. It is humbling, tiring, refining, and rewarding beyond measure. I wish I were better at it but so very grateful for the gift of trying my best to raise these beautiful little spirits. I am so grateful for all the beautiful women who have touched my life. Happy Mother's Day to all of you!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Genevieve has three months under her belt!




Oh, my this girl is the joy of my heart right now. Whenever I am feeling stressed and/or depressed all I have to do is plop myself down with her and talk to her and look at her and adore her and all is right with the world. She makes me feel like the luckiest mom in the world. She is pretty particular about her naps so we try to stay home as much as possible which is sort of nice. And like all my babies she takes these ridiculously long naps. She is rolling over a tiny bit, she is laughing, she doesn't like being tickled very much, she has this super deep laugh that cracks me up, she loves music, she's loves being held super close (she'll be crying and then I rest my forehead on hers and she is instantly calm), and of course I love love her dimples. She is getting super chubby. None of Angie's handmedowns are working too well since Angeli was this scrawny little stick baby so I am having fun buying little things here and there. ;) The kids absolutely love her to pieces. Angeli is the cutest mini-mom on the face of the earth. Genevieve is such a blessing in our lives. I was thinking the other day about how if she hadn't surprised us with my pregnancy how Stewart and I would have been in Thailand instead of sitting in the hospital with her fitting RSV a couple months ago and while that wasn't all that fun we all agree she could rock Thailand any day. ;) she's like having our own little piece of heaven.

This is just for kicks, here is Angeli at six months in the same dress, clearly sisters right?!?!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Business Offer



We'll be moving next July and thus I will be pulling up shop for my hand print business which is going to make my returning costumers rather sad. So I thought it'd be cool to train someone the same way I was trained to take over for me in Reno. Its a great little out of home business that has a lot of growth potential in Reno. I never really tapped into all that is could grow into because with so many kids and Stewart's schedule I never had the time - I think if I had done one of the local festivals I would have made a fortune! I would love being able to to start letting my costumers know who will be taking over for me. Seriously I would make it so easy for you...you'd know were to buy everything, how to advertise, how to get your business license going, how to make them cute, what glazes work best,...you'd be taking over a very well oiled machine. Anyways, if you are interested let me know. I would be really excited to teach someone all the tricks of the trade.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Dear 2011,

Dear 2011,

Listen, it has been good so far but honestly I am done with the ER well, hospitals in general when I really think about it. So if we can agree that I have hit my quota for a while I would very much appreciate it. Thanks.

Emily


*Stewart had his tonsils out on Monday morning. Everything went really well. Then last night as he was talking he felt something crack in his throat and he started hemorrhaging blood from his old left tonsil sight. Man, it was a lot of blood. I rushed him to the ER and right as we pulled up his bleeding stopped. They checked him in fast - holding a mixing bowl filled with blood will do that for you. But the register lady threw out the blood in the bowl. Silly lady. I guess she didn't like looking at it. So when the doc saw us and Stewart had clotted up they sent us home. We tried to tell them he had bled a lot but they said it seemed fine and to go home. We felt a little stupid for going in and hoped it was just a fluke thing. Well, an hour later the clot dislodged and we were off for round two at the ER. This time it was a bit more bleeding and he was still bleeding when we got there. - It was pretty scary watching my husband spitting and coughing up blood like that. I would inwardly freak out when he would throw up from all the blood in his stomach. This time when the doctor came in the room he took one look at Stewart and his giant bowl of blood and said "I am calling the surgeon." and was off getting things in place for Stewart's care. Stewart started to get really light headed from losing so much blood and he was hooked up to an IV and was taken off to surgery to re-cauterize the wound. It was a LONG night. We got home 5:30 am just as the sun was peaking up over the hills. I am so grateful for my dear friend for coming over twice in the night despite all her own children at home and rocking my little baby and making sure my kids were safe so I could be with Stewart. She was the one who saved the day with Genvieve's hospital stay and I am so glad I have someone I can call no matter the time or day. Stewart is doing alright. He is in a lot of pain and is super drained. So our take home lesson...think long and hard about semi-elective surgeries. You could be in for more then you are bargaining for. Oh, and when it says stay in bed for two to three days and slowly increase activity. Listen.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Oh, I'm in LOVE!

My little baby girl is my favorite little baby I ever had named Genevieve. ;) Oh, I love her like crazy. I know I don't look real cute (just got back from a run) but she is such a doll. How did I get so lucky?!?!



And the proud big brother... so adorable!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Grandpa Rasmussen's Funeral

This past week we were lucky enough to be able to attend Stewart's paternal grandfather's funeral. He passed away at the age of 88 peacefully in his sleep with his dear wife there holding his hand as he passed. For the last year his health had been declining and so in the end I think the family was happy for him to have relief from his body that was sick with age. Being at the funeral was such a sweet experience that really touched my heart. He was truly one of the most Christlike people I have ever had the privilege of knowing. I wrote this on his online obituary page,


"I will always remember the first time I met Grandpa Rasmussen. My boyfriend at the time, Stewart, was excited for me to meet his grandparents and we stopped in casually to say hello. He greeted me with a warm smile. He put his arm around me, called me a "doll", and made it sound as if I was the talk of the town. He served us his classic ice cream and got to work making me feel like a million dollars. When I told him I liked to run and would run up to the "Y" occasionally he was so impressed that from that time on he would tell everyone that I ran the "Y" even if it had been years since I had run it. :) He would go out of his way to make me feel loved and so talented and appreciated. I loved him the first time I met him and will forever have a special place for him in my heart. He cared for me as if I were is own granddaughter and that meant the world to me. I am so grateful that my children can claim him as their great grandfather. I hope they continue his legacy of tenderness, charity, and love. As my father would say, "He was a prince among men."

Here are some pictures and thoughts from the funeral that I want to remember:

Wednesday we made the long drive to Utah arriving at my brother's home at 2:30am. We spent Thursday morning with my sister-in-law Kristine which was wonderful. She is such a saint, I just love spending time with her. I went for a short little run. Oh, I love running in Utah. The mountains are absolutely breathtaking. Breathtaking. That afternoon we met up with the Ras crew to pay homage to Grandpa by eating at one of his favorite places, Chuck-a-Rama. :O) We filled our tummies and hearts with the feast of food and family.Later that evening we attended the viewing. It was nice to be able to see grandpa and let it sink in deeper that he was in fact gone. We enjoyed seeing so many family and friends there as well.

I caught this picture of Grandma saying goodbye to her sweet heart. I thought it was so sweet how she was holding out her hand to him.

Mom and Dad have been there for Grandma and have dried her tears and warmed her heart countless times as she has been living with them these past months. I know they will continue to be there for her and lighten her burdens. They are angels on earth.

Friday morning was the funeral. It was a beautiful day and a beautiful service, which I was able to enjoy thanks to Aunt Mary Anne coming to babysit Genevieve for me during the service. BLESS her heart! Hearing all the sweet things about grandpa was so lovely. Remembering him and recognizing the legacy of Christlike love he left behind really made me so thankful that I had the opportunity to be his "granddaughter". I also came away with a desire to be a better person. He loved everyone and made sure they felt like they were on top of the world. I was touched at how happy we were able to be because of how great a man he was and because of our testimonies that we will all be reunited again someday. We will all miss him but know he is so very very happy now.
That night we had a Rasmussen family party at grandma and grandpa's house soaking in the sun, playing games, and visiting with each other. It felt like the old times when the family would always get together and spend lazy fun days all together. It was just lovely.
Saturday we spent listening to conference and visiting with more family and friends that we hadn't seen is such a long time. The boys headed up to Salt Lake to attend the priesthood session in person and met up with my Brother Bob and his older boys. They loved it and celebrated after with my brother's tradition of In-and-Out.

Sunday we headed to David and Sherrie's house for our traditional conference breakfast. We were going to head home after morning session but we decided to stay an extra day because of the snow and Stewart's bad cold he came down with. David and Sherrie are really wonderful people. They love our kids as if they were their own grandbabies and Sherrie's food is seriously divine! That night we headed to my brother Bob's home and enjoyed dinner with them and their family. Love those people...Bob told us stories about my dad and his conversion, I thought it was really fun to hear.

Overall it was therapeutic and wonderful. I am not sure when we will be able to be back in Utah and be able to enjoy our family so much but I hope it isn't too long. Watching the kids LOVE being with their cousins was priceless. When we were packing up to go all of them were crying that they never wanted to go home. ;) I cant wait to be with them all again! I sure hope they start Rasmussen family reunions soon!

Grandpa Remembered

Stewart's Grandfather Passed away two weeks ago and I wanted to save these beautiful words written about him so my children can know how truly wonderful their great grandfather he was and is.

This is his obituary written by Lind Williams (son-in-law)

Lloyd Evan Rasmussen, 88, passed away peacefully at the home of his son Garth Rasmussen in Henderson, Nevada on March 23, 2011. He was born on March 21, 1923 in Fairview, Utah to Wilford Woodruff Rasmussen and Matilda Winkelmann Rasmussen. After spending his childhood years in Fairview, his family moved to Provo, Utah. He attended Brigham Young High School where he was an outstanding athlete in football, basketball, and baseball.

In fact, it was at a B.Y. High vs. Provo High rivalry game where he met his future wife, Nadine Farr. Lloyd was playing basketball for B.Y. High and Nadine was a cheerleader for Provo High. Lloyd was dribbling down the sideline when Nadine accidentally tripped him. As they both tell it, that’s where he first fell for her, and they’ve been in love ever since. They married in the Salt Lake L.D.S. Temple on September 23, 1943. He served in the Army and was stationed overseas during World War II. He graduated from LDS Business College in Salt Lake City and then worked as an accountant for the U.S. Steel Geneva Plant until his retirement.

Always active in the LDS Church, he has served in a variety of positions including being a counselor in two bishoprics. During many years as a scoutmaster and a baseball coach, he was a positive influence in the lives of many young men. Lloyd and his wife Nadine served in the London England South Mission and have also served as Temple Workers in the Provo LDS Temple.

Lloyd and Nadine have four children: Susan Green, Santa Fe, New Mexico; Meridee Williams and husband Lind, Provo, Utah; Garth L. Rasmussen and wife Kathy, Henderson, Nevada; and Shaun F. Rasmussen and wife Susan, Eldorado Hills, California. They have 18 grandchildren and 27 great-grandchildren. Lloyd is preceded in death by his parents and all of his siblings: Harold, Merlin, Elden, and Leah. He is survived by his wife Nadine.

Perhaps his most lasting legacy is his complete selflessness and tender regard for all that knew him. One could not visit their home without Lloyd inviting them to eat, and one could not eat without Lloyd coaxing them to eat more. Neighbors, family, friends, and strangers all benefited from his sharing attitude. He took a personal interest in and was a friend to everyone he met. He loved BYU sports, and he loved to fish, boat, hike, and camp. When camping, he took the time to get to know every stranger he met, and he could tell you the name, hometown, and a personal story about everyone in the campground within a couple of hours after setting up camp. His children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren will forever remember his tender heart, the smile on his face, and the tears of gratitude in his eyes.

Funeral services will be held on Friday, April 1 at 11:00 a.m. at the Bonneville 4th Ward Chapel, 1285 East 300 South, in Provo. Family and friends may call on Thursday evening, March 31 at the Berg Mortuary, 185 East Center Street in Provo or at a viewing Friday at the church one hour prior to the funeral services. Interment will be in the Provo City Cemetery following the services.

This was the talk Megan Willimas Hinckley (granddaughter) gave at his funeral. She did a really beautiful job with it.

You might wonder who the luckiest kids in all the world are. Well I can tell you. They’re not kids sponsored by Oprah, or kids whose parents own candy stores. The luckiest kids in the world are the grandkids of Lloyd Rasmussen.

When the 18 of us saw that Grandpa Ras, our favorite person in the world, was dying and would soon be leaving us, we knew we had to do something to thank him for the many things we have learned from him. Each of us wrote him a short letter thanking him and with our parents’ help we found pictures of grandpa and each one of his grandkids. We made them into a book that we will forever treasure.

Today I’ll be sharing thoughts from all of my cousins’ letters. Though he didn’t often give us formal lessons—the things we learned from watching this sweet man have shaped our lives.

He taught us what it means to be a husband. We loved hearing him call Grandma “Miss America.” We loved seeing our grandpa escort Grandma, Aunt Winnie, and their neighbor Helen to plays and sporting events at BYU. He’d drop off the girls at the door, go park the car a mile away, jog back to the event, and do it all over again at the end. He took such great care of “the girls.” And if we had the chance to go with Gramps, he gave us the same treatment. Grandpa’s love for Grandma was evident in everything he did. Miss America is a fitting title for Grandma because Grandpa truly treated her like a queen. From grandpa the boys learned how to be husbands and the girls learned what to look for in one.

Grandpa taught us to have fun. Nobody played cards better than Grandpa Ras—and when you got to learn a new game by being on his team, you knew you were gonna win. Almost as fun as watching Grandpa’s card skills, was hearing him shout phrases like “Let’s bid ‘em to the moon!” Or “who dealt this mess?” He always had his card ready to play before the hand was led—like he knew what you’d play before you did. We loved seeing Grandma steal peeks at his hand (though she’d never admit it). In addition to card games—Grandpa filled our summers with magic. Grandpa often took the boys on backpacking trips in the mountains. He’d give us rides on his old Honda motorcycle and take us camping in his trailer. Grandpa would spend the night out on the parade route for the 4th of July to secure a prime location every year!

One of the things we loved best, though, was boating. Gramps taught us to waterski and if we were a little too timid, he’d talk us into taking a “nice, slow, sensible ride” on the tube. It didn’t take long for us to realize there was nothing nice, slow, or sensible about his tube rides—once I truly wondered if he was trying to kill me—but as we hung on to the straps and each other for dear life, hitting wave after wave, we fell in love with the boat, with muddy, stinky Utah Lake, and with the knowledge we had that our grandpa was the funnest grandpa on the block. Those summers on the lake transformed us from cousins to best friends.

We all remember Grandpa tickling us. He didn’t ever tickle us until we wet our pants—we left those shenanigans up to Shaun and Sue—but we could always count on Grandpa chasing us around the yard if we taunted him by dissing his favorite singer. Saying “Frank Sinatra’s Not So Hot-ra” was always a request for tickles. We also remember Gramps tickling us with the question “Who’s girl are you?” “Or who’s boy are you?” He wouldn’t stop until we’d shout with tears streaming down our faces “Your girl, Grandpa!” or “I’m your boy!” We’ll always be your boys and girls, Grandpa, always.

We also remember the way Grandpa made us feel about ourselves. Each of us felt like the favorite grandchild and we each have solid evidence to prove it. He would dote on us, call our parents to brag about us, and make us feel like we were amazing even for accomplishing dumb things like checking the flavor to water ratio of his crystal light concoctions. He always called on our birthdays—often before 7 am.

He made us feel important by spending time with us. We loved BYU games. He’d hand the usher a handful of tickets and then shoo in all us grandkids before the usher had a chance to see if the number of tickets actually equaled the number of kids. We’d watch grandpa diligently keep basketball statistics during the game. When we’d watch games on tv at Grandpa’s house, he’d pace around the room, jump on his mini trampoline, and do push ups to calm his nerves. We loved watching him worry—even if the game wasn’t close.

Grandpa taught us to be generous. You knew when you went to Grandma and Grandpa’s that Grandpa would feed you. Often we’d cry out “No! No more Grandpa! Really I’m full!” before he threw another scoop of potatoes onto our plates. Grandpa always had a basement full of pop and a freezer full of ice cream. He kept a candy machine on the counter, a bag of popcorn in the hall, and licorice in the cupboard. And he liked nothing more than to feed you and watch you enjoy it. He always had a favorite restaurant. We remember trips to BYU cafeteria and Chucka-rama (which we lovingly called Chuck-a-rampa) He loved places where “you can see all the food” and pick what you want. He also sent us on runs for subway sandwiches, Little Cesar’s Pizza, and McDonalds for Big Mac Monday. We will always remember how kindly and patiently he treated us when we broke mirrors, lamps, and even once or twice the pool table. And we’ll never forget the time we found and devoured a bag of licorice in the basement without asking. We felt such remorse at having “stolen” from our grandpa that we sadly headed upstairs to make our apologies. Grandpa exclaimed, “Holy Toledo! I forgot! I bought a bag for each of you!” and he handed each of us our own 2 lb bag of licorice.
Our grandpa wasn’t only a true gentleman, but also a truly gentle man. He cried with joy over everything: mission calls, engagements, weddings, BYU acceptance letters, birth announcements. We cry with joy over the life our Grandpa lived and the wonderful man he was. We knew of the tender concern and love that he felt for each of us and we knew we were prized in his heart. Grandpa, you will always be prized in our hearts, and we can’t wait to see you again.

With love,
Your grand children

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Thinking

Things I was thinking today:

- My love language is words...if I send you an email, give you a phone call, write something about you on my blog, comment on your blog or facebook or send a card it is my way of saying I love you. but I do try and speak peoples real love languages too. seriously I do - even though I often stink at it.

- I hate going to the food bank but since we could use it I go... someday my husband will make us a lot of money and I will help people who need it and I will never forget the days when we waited in line for food so my kids would not have to go without. Don't get me wrong we aren't starving or homeless but we are still poor enough that I trek up the hill with my four kids and get food hand outs to help us get by. its a humbling experience for me but I thank God for the sweet people that do it for our community since the recession. Angels those people!

- I am anxious about our car...in the shop again. I wish we could just trade it in and buy a really reliable car. All in good time I guess. for now we are forking out $1990 for our transmission to be fixed. awesome.

- I wish I was a kinder person...more patient, less hormonal and cranky.

- I am so in love with my baby...look how cute she was last night- I really enjoy reading books with my husband...we've started a thing where we take turns picking out book series to read out loud to each other. Right now we are reading the series The Great and Terrible by Chris Stewart. Almost done with book one and I think it is really interesting.

- My sister told me that one of the best schools in the world (yes, that bestest) is in Tucson of all places. Awesome!

- I love Spring but for some reason it is making me anxious this year...I cant believe it is already here and I thought I would be more on top of things by now...I guess I need to chill. I do have a two month old baby after all.

- This is Stewart's last week of medical school! I cant believe it. In some ways I feel a little sad. I cant believe we are done with medical school. Starting new chapters can be hard for me sometimes. I now residency will be hard. But its a step forward so for that I am grateful.

- Stewart is rocking out his wood stuff on etsy. He loves it. Go Stewart! - I often have to remind him, that it is a hobby, that in fact he is going to be a doctor when he grows up not a carpenter. He is trying to be both I guess. :O)

- I need to get dressed and face the day ahead of me...food bank and sanding ceramics here I come!